My One & Only

We met when we were two,
Look at the years we've been through.
It's been nineteen since we met,
And two since our first date.

You've seen me at my worst,
When all seemed lost,
You were always there
No matter what the cost.

I can't imagine time-
Without you by my side.
I've loved you once,
I love you still.
Always have,
Always will.






A couple weeks back, my love and I did a cute little couples photo shoot. This man is the man of my dreams. I cannot imagine my life without him.
We've had hard times. We've had a difficult relationship, but God brought us back together. He will forever be the man for me.

"Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast."

It's crazy to think about how our lives have been. We met at a wedding when we were two years old. I'd like to tell you my complete side of the story, but I'll save that for a more important day. For now I will tell you we started dating our senior year of high school. January 2011 to be exact. Our first date was a little after valentines day. We were together for over a year and then broke up in June 2012. It was the hardest time of my life. I went away to college the fall of 2012. I met so many new people and grew in a relationship with God that I had never had before. He went about his own way as well. After almost a year of not seeing or talking to each other, something brought us back together in May 2013. I'm still not sure how it happened. I was packing up, getting ready to move back home for the summer after a year of being away at college. Things just clicked between us. He asked me to go out on a date with him when I got back home from college. It was the first time we had talked face-to-face in almost a year. It was perfect. I knew I still truly cared about him. We discussed that while we knew it would be impossible to start over, we wanted to try. In a way, we have started over though. We are both completely different people after that year apart. It's been 6 months now since we got back together, and in a way, it's like we never broke up. I fell in love with him all over again. I know he is the one for me and I'm "patiently" waiting for the day he asks me to be his forever. <3 (Okay, so I'm not patient at all. I drop hints on a daily basis.) I just want the rest of my life with him.

"When you know who you want to spend the rest of your life with, 

you want the rest of your life to begin right away."

                                            

 I can't imagine my life with anyone else. I love him and thank God for bringing us back together.

<3

My One and Only

Halloween

What did you do this Halloween?! 

Did you dress up as a cat or minion or go out with friends, stay in and watch movies, homework? 

Maybe you go the lecture, "Halloween is of the devil and you should not celebrate in any way." 

I understand that lecture, while I never recieved it, I get how Halloween can be associated with Satanism and witchcraft. I'll admit, I watched some scary movies and Halloweentown (Disney channel movie) is always my go to Halloween movies series. They're about witches, goblins, and scorcery. They're such great movies though. I believe anything is good as long as it's not in excess or not distracting you from God. 

Last night for Halloween, I made my own costume of a Peacock. I went out to eat with my boyfriend, hung out with some friends at their apartment, and came home and watched scary movies. I'm not about that party life. I enjoyed making my costume and spending time with friends. 

I made my mask. 

$5 for a mask at Party City

$5 for the feathers at Hobby Lobby

I used a hot glue gun to glue the feathers in layers along the top of the mask. 

I made a tutu to wear as sort of the feather tail. 

Purple and silver material .97cents a yard at Walmart. I purchased 2 yards of each and cut them into strips. 

Blue sparkly material from Hobby Lobby for $3.99. It was 12 yards on a spool and cut in to strips. 

The material is tied around a piece of elastic from Hobby Lobby for $1.99.

I glued the elastic together after measuring for my waist. 

I wore a black strapless shirt and black leggings with black high heels to complete the costume. 

Side of the mask. 

It was a lot of fun to make my own costume. And honestly cheaper than if I would have bought it at WalMart or Party City. 

My friends. <3

It was so much fun.  

Here's some pictures of Halloween's past: 

From left: me, my mom, my now roommate, her brother, my little brother. 

My little brother and I were both Indians for Halloween in 2000. He was 4 and I was about to be 8. 

Me as a Tiger and my friend as a pumpkin in 1995. She was 2 and I was almost 3. 

And my wonderful Snowman outfit. This was an unusually warm Halloween for Tennessee and my costume was HOT. I believe it was 2003 so I would have been 11. 

I do love Halloween. I ate so much candy yesterday in my classes and had a lot of fun watchin scary movies. 

Hope everyone else did too! 

Happy November! 

 

Strength & Trust

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

Psalms 73:26 ESV 

Even in the toughest of times, God is with you. One of the things I struggle with most is trusting God and having faith that everything will turn out okay. 

As a senior in college, I'm still unsure about what path to follow after graduation. Writing has been my passion all my life, but what can I do with it? What way do I go to serve God? 

I have been reading a book called "Just Do Something" by Kevin DeYoung. It is inspiring. It's all about God's Will and what to do. I hope to post more about the book and what I think about it. It'll be completely of my own opinion and I'll restate that again when I do begin posting about it. 

Daily, I call on my Father to forgive me of my unbelief and non-trusting flesh and ask for His help. 

Trusting God & believing in Him ❤️

"God is my strength and power; he maketh my way perfect."

2 Samuel 22:33

Follow

I have finally made an Instagram app for you all to follow! @fearfullywonderfulmade

Also, I have an email set up that is specifically for the blog so you no longer have to message me on Facebook. I will post the link to it in my profile, but for right now it is: fearfullywonderfulpsalm139@gmail.com

Thank you all so much for the support as I follow my dreams and serve God throughout life. 

Trusting God through it all. <3 

Pride

You always hear about how being prideful is one of the 7 deadly sins. One day I might go in to more detail about those, but today I want to share with you a little about my own pride.

No, not pride in myself. 

Pride in my incredible boyfriend. 

You see I've known him since I was two years old. We were absolutely precious when we met at two. He's my best friend and the love of my life.

Whenever I need someone, I go to him. He wipes my tears, makes me laugh, and allows me to be myself. He spoils me like no other. 

Love is patient...

I am a stubborn person. I will not deny that. He takes time to calmly talk to me about things that are going on when I seem unreasonable. 

Love is kind..

Kind. Compassionate. Loving. Considerate. Those are some aspects that make him perfect. 

Love does not envy..

He doesn't get jealous. I don't get jealous. We tell each other everything and would never do anything to cause trust to be broken. 

I had a little boy (I say little because he is 17 and I'm 20) that became sort of obsessed with me. I asked him to leave me alone and when he didn't, my boyfriend kindly took care of it. 

Love does not boast..

Excessive talk of oneself is the definition of boast. 

He asks me about my day and I ask him of his. We share in our joys and accomplishments, but I don't boast and say things like "I made more money than you this week." No. We talk completely openly. He tells me he's proud of me and I tell him how proud I am of him. 

Love never fails..

No matter what it's put through. It won't stop. You love the person through the good and the bad. We've definitely had some bad in our relationship but the good outweighs it. Over the past two years, we both went through things that completely changed us. We still love each other more than anything in the end. 

I love him with everything in me. 

Blessed❤

I feel extremely blessed in my life. 

There are people you meet in your life that teach you lessons and there are people in your life that make you thankful every day.

Saturday I went to the mall with my bestfriend, my boyfriend, the love of my life, Dakota. We walked around, had lunch, and shopped. We then went in to Build A Bear. He told me I could pick a bear out and we could make it together! 

He named the bear Chandler in honor of our favorite tv show FRIENDS. The spongebob shirt is because we both enjoy spongebob and we watch it together. 

I was so excited to cuddle Chandler. He say in my lap as we drove home from the mall. Dakota held my hand as he drove my car. 

I have known this boy since we were two years old. We started dating over two years ago. It's been a crazy two years, but I would not trade it for anything. 

I am so blessed in this life I live. I thank God for allowing me to meet the boy who would one day become everything to me at just two years old. We're both 20 now and figuring out what we want out of life, but we know we want it with each other. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not ride, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (NIV) 

Who Am I?

In all of my posts, I have written about quotes or Bible verses. I have not given much background on myself..

I am a senior at TTU. My major is Communications-Public Relations with a concentration in Digital Media and a minor in Speech Communication. Yes, that is a mouthful, but I love it! I chose this major because I love to read and write. Also, I never enjoyed math or science enough to pursue careers involving either subject. I am a grammar nazi. I hate when people misuse the forms of "to", "too", "there", "their", "they're", "your", and "you're". I love to sit and read a good book such as the Divergent series by Veronica Roth, or any book by Karen Kingsbury or James Patterson. (Check them out!) When I go to the beach, I spend hours in a chair on the shoreline. As the water comes up over my feet, I dig my toes in the sand and get lost in the main character of the book. I love books wrote in first person because I can become that character.

"When I read books, it is an escape. Escape from people, work, and reality. When you want to get away, just grab a book."

I also keep a journal. It isn't a "oh, here's what I ate today.." or even a "he's just so cute, I wonder if he likes me.." sort of journal. This journal has my church notes, my devotionals, quotes, life verses, and my true feelings about what I want out of life. When I am mad, writing it all out is the best escape.

"When you write for yourself, that's true passion."

When I need encouragement, I go back to it and find some of the verses I have written down. My favorite to reread in times of trouble or heartache is:

However, as it is written:

“What no eye has seen,
    what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”
    the things God has prepared for those who love him.

1 Corithians 2:9

Now, I think you could guess that I might be creative.. Well, I am. I love Pinterest. Absolutely addicted to it. I enjoy making crafts and I wish I had the money to make more of them. I also scrapbook. I have for about 7 years now. I am really excited about the one I am currently working on! I will share a few pages with you once I have finished. :) 

So, there's a little bit of information on who I am. It also sort of explains why I chose Communications as my major. One day I'll give you the long, detailed story of how I got to this major. I wasn't always a Comm major... Another day, loves. 

Trusting God forever and for always. ❤